For some of you this may come as a surprise, since it is relatively recent, (only a little over a week) for others it might be the explanation you have been waiting for.
Here is my story,
So, I never gave much thought to head coverings, I mean, I knew the Amish and Mennonite were them and of course the Muslims. If I thought anything of it then it was the fact that I admired them for their peculiar practice but that was all.
The first time I even began thinking about wearing a head covering was in December. I had been looking up videos of how to tie scarves (for our Nativity Play) and I came across a video. In this video the woman was showing some easy ways to tie headscarves but also why she wore them. For the first time I actually started thinking about it, but I was busy, so I just tried to push it out of my mind. I did find another similar video but still although I was feeling slightly convicted, I pushed it out of my mind and tried to forget about it. After all it was so weird and well, I just didn’t not want to do it, still God had planted a seed. A seed that wasn’t going away.
When I was reading my Bible, I came across Corinthians chapter 11, now I was feeling convicted but, still I felt it would be too impractical and hard, so I tried to shrug it off. In one of my attempts to show God that this was just too much and way too crazy I wrote up a short list of what would happen if I did start covering my head. Friends might not like me, people would think I’m strange,….you get the point. But at the end when I looked over what I had written I found to my dismay it was all about ME but more than that it was my pride, the part of me that didn’t want to seem strange, the part in me that wanted to fit in. Still I was stubborn and went on with my normal life, there were times where I would feel convicted and other times when It wasn’t so much on my mind. The Lord used many gentle ways to convict me like his word, stories, and such.
Finally, one day while doing chores I prayed and asked the Lord if this was something, He actually wanted me to do that He would not let it leave my mind. Let’s just say it was on my mind and eventually was really in the front of my mind. I was a mess, mentally, still fighting, still stubbornly sticking to what I wanted. Then it struck me that I wasn’t just fighting, I was fighting against God. My relationship with the Lord seemed more distant and removed. (I must stress he NEVER left, more like my disobedience was pushing me away.) My heart felt lonely, like a bare mountain ridge before dawn. I couldn’t take it and it just wasn’t worth it. Desperate, I was searching, and I came across Mathew Chapter 15. That evening I did a Bible verse study on how God wanted women to dress. Let’s just say I found some information but not the nice reassuring stuff I wanted to find.
I went for a walk and started really talking to God. If for no other reason then I love Him and want to please I should obey. I asked him one last time that if this was something he wanted me to do then please as I did me evening reading have all the verse stand out, and if he still wanted me to think about it then just let one verse be sort of a contradiction to wearing a head covering. (You see I was still stubborn.) That evening I happened to be reading Psalm 119, and that psalm….is ALL about obeying the Lord. And so, like a well chastised child I knew I had been wrong. My spirit was now willing but my flesh was still very weak. So, without any announcement, I put a head covering on after my shower, and except for at night have worn it ever since.
Let me just say that on that barren mountain ridge the sun slowly rose, Although I have faced many worldly hurdles, I know that the Lord is with me. I’m beginning to see that God sometimes calls us to do seemingly irrational things from the human standpoint. But ultimately Jesus will use it for His glory and our good.
That is my story;
I leave with some verses that the Lord showed me in my search. May they be a blessing to you.
1 Timothy 2:9-10) (Romans 13:14) (Colossians 3:12)(1 Peter 5:5)(1 Peter 3:3-4) ( 1 Corinthians 11:5-6) (1 Corinthians 3:16)